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Years back I was told what all musicians dream of hearing ... I had a record deal ... with a 'hero' of mine as producer ...
With his name on my album, I assumed my future was set...
Things were looking good...

Funny - because I also had a nightmare the same night ...

In the nightmare, this producer and I were on top of a very steep, icy mountain. There was an earthquake, and we both fell down to the bottom. In my dream I saw myself go into a coma ...as well as wake up - in 2000 and something....

I remember being shocked awake ... I thought that there was going to be something awful happen to me... and my lifelong dream wasn't going to come true...Little did I know that the real life trauma would happen to him...

During those subsequent thirteen years, I would have the privilege of singing with and working alongside some of the most well recognized voices in the industry, and even be offered some dreamy contract where I could pursue the musical thing full time - I was simply surrounded by good people , who really believed in my abilities ...

Strangely enough, the timing was always wrong , and we couldn't follow through on the high hopes I'd had for my music ...Something always happened ... Either life threatening heart attacks to producers, or somehow, this body of mine that was never supposed to get pregnant, would...

Now clearly, I would much rather have babies be what put me on sabbatical from musical stuff.rather than a heart attack.
In that way, and many others, I know that I came out ahead.
But the dream came true ... I was in a career coma thing ...

Here it is - 2000 and something ... And I've woken up ...
And it took thirteen plus years to get to a point when I can say sincerely - Full living isn't about record deals and famous names and careers .. It isn't about living out someone else s dream, or singing a song that is not your own ... It is about doing the things you love to do. And to do them when the time is right. I have seen a lot of casualties in this arena, leaving me with a distinct sense of
having been spared...

If you would have asked me back then,
I would have thought the coma was a bad thing ...

But the view from here is different ...

It always is ...

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I heard you singing one night in Connecticutt many years ago. I bought your tape "Dichotomies" and absolutely love the messages contained in the lyrics. They are words of Spirit and Truth. I still have the tape and in recent years tried to contact the Vineyard out in CT. I believe they said you moved to CA and I was not able to seek you out. Yesterday, I got on the wonderful Google machine and found you through your CD Amazed. I ordered it. I would love to know if you re-published the tape "Dichotomies" as the tape is worn out. I hope to share your music through drama. Glad to hear you have enjoyed raising a family and God has spared you the tragedy so many musicians encounter. I am in Florida, for now. Hope to return to New England. Bless you Beth! My e-mail:adivinedestiny@yahoo.com
--Lisa Casavant ( adivinedestny at yahoo dot com ) on 5/19/2008; 2:15:13 PM
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Hi Beth! I'm not sure if you remember me or not, my name used to be Judy Routley. i am remarried and live in Florida. you have come to mind several times over the past few months and I thought I would take the time to find you and see what you have been up to.
I remember what a beautiful voice you have and was interested in a cd if you have made one.
I would love to hear from you if you have the time to respond to my email.
God is Good and in control,
Judy
--Judy Greenwood ( greenwoodjames1 at bellsouth dot net ) on 4/11/2008; 3:25:50 PM
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